Veronica and I are attending foster parent training at the Division of Family and Children Services (DFCS). The class is a product of a bureaucracy that wanted 20 hours of training but only had 1 hour of material. Oh well, we have to do it. We are 6 hours into the brain numbing nightmare. I’m taking a book next time.

The silver lining is that it gives us 4 weeks to decide if this is the right thing to do. It isn’t an easy decision. Many people in the class are struggling with the temporary nature of foster parenting. However, the most difficult part for me is imagining the ambiguity of the assignment. I like that the job is temporary and that the goal is to reunite the child with their birth parents, but I'm not wild about the uncertainty of my commitment. I like to know what to expect when I start something. I'm a planner. I won't know if I'm signing up for 10 days, 10 weeks, or 10 years. This will be tough for me.